Thee

A breeze of cold wind
In this hot evening
Or was it just the thought of you?



The silent wish of you being with me
In these lonely times
Now and Forever?



T'is shiver of glee that ran through me
Is as much a mystery
As are thou...

Loneliness

As the night slowly draws

From shade to absolute darkness

My enemies come forth

N' gnaws me mercilessly

My tears serve not

As they usually do

But to brighten manifold

The burning pain within

I fantasize my victory

Every minute every day

From the dreaded enemies

Yet I fail, I fail, I fail

Tonight the pain

Just weighs me down

I might overcome

Or simply be drowned

Till sleep comes to my rescue

I have but one way to survive;

Hug my enemies till I die

That's how all these days went by;

I embrace tight

Every day, every night

My loneliness...

.

Free

Its quite strange the way it is...
Tears well up
When I want them least
Smiles I have to weave
When i want them to leave .
Yet i feel proud
Of my innocent nerves
For not popping off
Even when their wreck is known;
For not pushing me down
The somber valley of insanity.
I want to forgive
I want to hold close
But i want to give happiness most of all.
Embracing when I fail at it
I must set free;
Free to go and conquer
All it wants and deserves;
Except me.

( Image courtesy : Shekhar Shimpi

Original source : Ecstasy by Maxfield Parrish )

High Hopes

I sit pondering here
In the warmth of your lap
My thoughts force a tear to my eye
A tear in remembrance to the past-
Gloriously wrapped in beauty
Abundant scenic charm
Resplendent green pastures,splendid landscapes.


Times have changed...
Homes have turned to houses
N' have grown closer
While people drift farther.
The love, the bonding, the belonging
All have given way to materialism.
Your beauty unexplored
Has plunged from exuberant brilliance
To virgin abandonment.

Despair engulfs me with these thoughts
But in your loving lap
I take the courage to hope;
Hope that times do change again
N' change for the best.
Hope that the charm of yesteryears
Rebloom in bounty.

Hoping that my hopes come true........

gOOD bYE !

I try hard....
But it seems am out to be defeated;
Defeated even by myself.
I strain my being
Starve it of all its needs;
Yet all it yearns for
All it asks for,
All it waits for
Is You....
The pangs of pain fail to get attention
The fear of death fails to draw heed
Your absence is all that is noticed;
Noticed with unbearble gloom..
So unbearably traumatic
Death seems a solace
N' is waited eagerly for...
But even death defeats me...
N' why shouldn't all defeat me
When You did???
I should invariably expect worse,
Viciously worse from the crowded lonely world....
So now I am prepared
Prepared to face defeat
Prepared to embrace death
Prepared to lose you
With tears in the eyes
N' a jubilant smile on my lips..
GOOD BYE !!!

Darkness to Dawn

The more I try to reach the dawn
The more darkness the night draws.
I seem to get lost endlessly
In this darkness,I never sought.
Unseen thorns prick me
Prick me where I can't get to them
I silence my screams and groans
But the pain calls forth my tears..
I bid them to stop
's the thorns were not really meant for me;
Just a sadist gift of darkness.
Tears would imply my defeat
So I must stride on and on
To reach the much awaited dawn
Defeating all out to defeat me
Defeating even my tears
In my quest for Dawn...
"Dawn,all this for you,
'Cos I Love You!!!"

Knit into Life !

I knew not the world
But I felt I knew
N' now when I really know
I feel better of without
I know not whether I really know
The life I feel so sure I know now.
But life's a long journey
With paths so many
No prediction works
On what shows up where
'Bout the confusingly knit life.
I'd rather chose to live
Knowing what I'd do
Than living ignorantly
Making mistakes now and then.
But its not as bad as it seems
For with every mistake of mine
I learn and know it won't happen again.
So thus I cheer up
N' agree to live on,
Live on to find:
The secrets of dreary life;
Live on just because
Am knit into the Knitted life...