High Hopes

I sit pondering here
In the warmth of your lap
My thoughts force a tear to my eye
A tear in remembrance to the past-
Gloriously wrapped in beauty
Abundant scenic charm
Resplendent green pastures,splendid landscapes.


Times have changed...
Homes have turned to houses
N' have grown closer
While people drift farther.
The love, the bonding, the belonging
All have given way to materialism.
Your beauty unexplored
Has plunged from exuberant brilliance
To virgin abandonment.

Despair engulfs me with these thoughts
But in your loving lap
I take the courage to hope;
Hope that times do change again
N' change for the best.
Hope that the charm of yesteryears
Rebloom in bounty.

Hoping that my hopes come true........

gOOD bYE !

I try hard....
But it seems am out to be defeated;
Defeated even by myself.
I strain my being
Starve it of all its needs;
Yet all it yearns for
All it asks for,
All it waits for
Is You....
The pangs of pain fail to get attention
The fear of death fails to draw heed
Your absence is all that is noticed;
Noticed with unbearble gloom..
So unbearably traumatic
Death seems a solace
N' is waited eagerly for...
But even death defeats me...
N' why shouldn't all defeat me
When You did???
I should invariably expect worse,
Viciously worse from the crowded lonely world....
So now I am prepared
Prepared to face defeat
Prepared to embrace death
Prepared to lose you
With tears in the eyes
N' a jubilant smile on my lips..
GOOD BYE !!!

Darkness to Dawn

The more I try to reach the dawn
The more darkness the night draws.
I seem to get lost endlessly
In this darkness,I never sought.
Unseen thorns prick me
Prick me where I can't get to them
I silence my screams and groans
But the pain calls forth my tears..
I bid them to stop
's the thorns were not really meant for me;
Just a sadist gift of darkness.
Tears would imply my defeat
So I must stride on and on
To reach the much awaited dawn
Defeating all out to defeat me
Defeating even my tears
In my quest for Dawn...
"Dawn,all this for you,
'Cos I Love You!!!"

Knit into Life !

I knew not the world
But I felt I knew
N' now when I really know
I feel better of without
I know not whether I really know
The life I feel so sure I know now.
But life's a long journey
With paths so many
No prediction works
On what shows up where
'Bout the confusingly knit life.
I'd rather chose to live
Knowing what I'd do
Than living ignorantly
Making mistakes now and then.
But its not as bad as it seems
For with every mistake of mine
I learn and know it won't happen again.
So thus I cheer up
N' agree to live on,
Live on to find:
The secrets of dreary life;
Live on just because
Am knit into the Knitted life...

The Task

I know not why I do
As i do know
Empty my hearts contents:
Open to you now
Maybe I had have enough
Enough of trying to learn myself
I might be pleading you aid
Aid to know my true self
The self none sees
Deep within where no eye falls
Beneath the fair skin
Beneath the layers of flesh
Try and delve deep
Deep to help me find me out
I have lent my voice
My inner private voice away
My only speech troubles only you.
Only your patient ears
Stranger though you are
I tire you with the task
You may have no need of me
I know
Yet,
I go on
On and on
Not knowing why you
A stranger,of all beings......

Loneliness

Loneliness gnaws me hard...
But there's not much i can do
I seem to love this too
'Cos this loneliness
You give to me
The pain is hard to bite on
The sorrow is hard to hide
My eyes show it all
I wish u were near
'Cos u would surely have hugged me hard
And the pain would have vanished...
I love u more than u can ever imagine
I love u for u r mine
I love u for am urs
Its easy to die
Yet i find it so hard to do
'Cos i yearn to live with u
I yearn to fulfill our dreams
I yearn to bring our kids to the world
I yearn to live forever in ur arms
In the warmth of ur love
Thats all i ask u.........................

Miss You !

Tonight I lie awake
Praying for you
Hunger tugs me hard and so does sleep
But i fight them off.
But now tears are here
N' am losing the battle to them..
Just cos u sleep so far
So out of my reach
That neither my sobs nor my shrieks reach your ears.
Hope the morning has hope for me
Hope the morning brings you close to me.
As these tears are breaking my heart apart
All I am praying is
You be happy throughout
Peace and success brimming your life
N' all am hoping is that I be a small part of it......
Howsoever small
Which warrants some love from you
N' your proximity...
But no void
Like the one I feel so sure of tonight
Which causes loneliness to gnaw my heart.
MISS YOU !!!

Calling You!

My love
My dreams
I come I call you
I beckon you
With watery eyes
Half felt smile...
If you come not now;
Now when i want u to hold and sleep
Come not tomorrow
Or some yonder days or nights
When i would be used to sleeping in solitude.....
On second thoughts ..
I beckon you for life.
For its so late tonight
N' not just tomorrow but the days, years and lifetimes to come
I will wait for you....
'Cos I want you to replace this Solitude....
FOREVER.......

ONLY YOU........ :-)

If you only knew how much I love you,
How essential you are to my life,
You would not dare to stay away for an instant,
You would always remain by my side,
Your heart pressed close to my heart,
Your soul to my soul.
How I long to give myself up in ecstasy
To your sweet breath
N' those kisses from your lips
Which fill me with delight..
Love me..
I need your love
As a touchstone of my existence.
I'm going to bed.
My last waking thoughts n' all my dreams
Are of you.
Only you.................................

Love You!

I heard a hollow voice
Calling your name.
I however had no choice
But to bite on the pain.
I knew it was my heart calling
And could find no way to hush it;
I wrenched my heart
And almost killed it...
But still all it does is call your name,
Beat for you and love you......